808

Today I am 808 days sober from alcohol. Time goes by so quickly. I've realized more now through my clarity, just how infinite life's beauty is, and the pain is just a part of it. Energy multiplies, high or low, when you focus your attention on it. The main thing I have understood from quitting alcohol is that I am the only one in control of my life. By releasing my addiction to the chemical spirit, I opened myself up to the vastness that is the world, the universe; the spirit of life itself. There is nothing to run from any longer.

I feel sorrow for everyone who can't see this, whether in a deep, new hole of sadness, or a chronic misery that clouds the sunlight from peeking down on their existence. But I have hope for them, as nothing lasts forever, that they may find just one sparkle to guide them out of their abyss.

The challenges we face are meant for us to learn from and grow out of. Our experiences are our teachers. When you view life from this perspective, you cannot be anyone's victim. You cannot be defined by any box someone puts you in. Your happiness becomes solely your responsibility, and no one can tell you how to get there.

I choose to receive anything life gives to me with grace. And anything I put in my body becomes a part of me, so I must choose wisely. There is nothing wrong with enjoying whatever you get out of alcohol, but for me, it was suffocating my connection to what I wanted my life to be. I couldn't take action, because I was always seeking consumption rather than becoming my dreams.

Yes, it's been a “long” time now, and no, I haven't landed on any ultimate achievement yet. But my visions have become unequivocal, even though I am still gathering my maps. Anything I desire can be obtained with my own persistence. If you are striving for something, I hope you find the path to get yourself there as well, and know that everything you've endured up until this point has been meant to guide your way forward. You will recognize the assistance it's given you, one day.